Life

Is this all there is? Is this life for me?

Seeking acceptance through supremacy

Pushing the boundaries, aiming so high

While deep inside feeling I'm living a lie

They crowd me with worry

(I'm faulty you see)

While they prod and they poke and they analyse me

They say the right words

They use the right tone

But I feel like I shoulder the weight on my own

Do I need to be perfect?

Do I need to fit in?

Will they like me as much if I try not to win?

If I don't win first prize

Or I fail to impress

Will they all turn their backs and love me much less?

I'm confused and I'm angry, depressed and in doubt

They can't fix me with words

They can't figure me out

Do I disappoint them with my self expectation

Or that all won't be well, with some grand revelation

Well I might not be quite.... who I hoped I would be

But I'll get there one day.. I'll be proud of me

It's a bumpy old road

But the bumps make you strong

And one day I'll see how far I've come along

That the man in the mirror has a friendlier face

Who knows life isn't all about winning the race

He'll smile back at me..

Stand his ground and walk tall

Having won the most challenging contest of ALL!!!!

© Andrea Payne 2011